Original Article on Yahoo!

If you follow anyone plus, by now you know Chrissy Metz, star of the hit drama This Is Us. Recently, she opened up to Yahoo! about her childhood abuse in her new memoir “This Is Me” (review coming soon).

The 37-year-old actress (really? girl, you look 22!) wrote about how she grew up in poverty and suffered physical and emotional abuse at the hands of her stepfather. In the book, she refers to him in the book only as “Trigger.”

“I’m a tough cookie,” Metz told PEOPLE. “But it’s one of those things that attempts to break your spirit.”

Her father, a former Navy officer, left her family when she was 8 years old. Her mother, Denise, raised Metz and her two siblings, Monica, then 15, and Phillip, then 13, on her own.

“My mom married Trigger at the courthouse,” Metz writes. “Soon she was pregnant again, with another girl, Abigail. Trigger loved his two biological children, and was even welcoming to Morgana. Me, not so much. My mother was always at work, so she didn’t see how he treated me.

Metz went on to say that her body “seemed to offend him.” He threatened locking the fridge and t avoid Trigger’s threats, Metz would hide her eating in the middle of the night. Eventually, he transitioned from emotional abuse to physical.

“I don’t remember why Trigger hit me the first time,” she wrote. “He never punched my face. Just my body, the thing that offended him so much. He shoved me, slapped me, punched my arm. He would hit me if he thought I looked at him wrong.”

“I remember being on the kitchen floor after he knocked me over, and I was begging to know what I did. He just shoved me hard with his foot.”

Then he started to weigh her.

“He’d get the scale from the bathroom and clang it hard on the kitchen floor. ‘Well, get on the damn thing!’ Trigger would yell. ‘This is what you need to know.’” Metz weighed about 40 to 50 lbs heavier than her 90 lb friends by age 14 when the weighing began.

“By then the beating had escalated,” she wrote. “One time he hit me, and I looked right in his face. If I had a gun, I thought, I would shoot you.”

“We all go through stuff. But I truly believe that everything that happened to me, happened for me. [I’ve learned] some beautiful lessons.”

Metz wasn’t able to retaliate because she felt she would be hurting her family, who “Trigger” provided for, financially, more than anyone had ever done. She said they do have a relationship, now.

What do you think? How would you handle this situation? Know anyone who has gone through similar trauma? Sound off below!